might’ve gotten a little carried away with this one but whatever
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I want to believe
“There are times you have to let people go. It doesn’t mean you don’t care, but you realize they don’t.”
— Unknown
You say you like me but
I am perpetually stuck waiting by the phone waiting for you to text me back. Often times, I have to wait all day for you to remember to message me. a chore that you have to check off your list. You usually don’t respond until late at night. 1am, typically. Not enough time for any real conversation. just long enough for you to say a few words that string me on for another 24 hours.
sometimes we don’t even talk about anything with substance. sometimes you just talk about how much you want to fuck me, sometimes I play along. I feel validated for a while, feeling like someone wants me for my pathetic body. never enough time to talk about what the fuck we are doing.
then i distance myself away. i go quiet for a while. only then do you decide to text me. you text me repeatedly. you ask me whats wrong. you tell me i can tell you.
and I reply. i lie. but i let you know i feel like shit. i try to play it off, but i thought you’d ask me more.
but you don’t.
you only talk about you. about what is going on in your life.
and I listen, and I react. trying to ease your stress. until you fall asleep.
only to repeat the cycle again.
This is the kind of relationship I just got out of. It ruins you in ways you can’t describe. It feels like you can’t breathe. Constantly. The best thing I ever did was let go.
There’s a difference between giving up, and knowing when you’ve had enough
Stranger : Who hurt you?
Me : I did. By getting my hopes up..again